This past 12 week closure was an interesting experiment wasn’t it? An experiment in resilience – emotionally, physically and spiritually. I learned a lot. In some ways I was busier and working harder than ever, and in other ways, I enjoyed a completely different pace.
I use the word experiment because although I was in the experience of this time, I purposely became the observer of myself. I observed myself in the experience of my emotions, responses and feelings of the waves of stress, change, uncertainty, lack of structure, choice being taken away, yet having more freedom of time than I’ve ever had in my adult life.
An Emotional Roller Coaster
I grieved the closing of the Studio. I struggled to wrap my head around what to do to stay connected during the closure, yet had fun teaching the zoom classes. I was worried about the future of the business and my livelihood, but I enjoyed a different rhythm. I was excited about the reopening, yet felt a loss of freedom of time, concern over the risk of opening and feeling a deep responsibility to keep my clients, team and myself healthy and safe.
The isolation played with my head. I felt a period of depression. By observing myself within this experience, I was able to feel what I felt, yet use my resources, tools and skills to support myself moving through it.
The Present
Stepping into more BEINGNESS.
With so many unknowns now and for the future, I’ve learned how to better be in the present moment. When I would catch myself feeling stressed, worried, concerned, I would take some breaths and bring myself into the moment. “What am I doing now?” Even if just sweeping the floor, I would focus on just that. “What is in my control?” Focus on that. BREATHE.
Now with the Studio open, I’m rolling with it. Adjusting to wearing a mask all day, working a little differently with my clients, and still getting great results. It feels better being back in the Studio. My purpose is fulfilled when I can help others in some way to feel better, feel happier, feel connected. That gives meaning to my life.
The Future
Like you, I’ve learned, shifted, adapted. I’m looking to all possibilities of the future and making some plans in case of another closure or in case restrictions ease; in case I get sick, in case my team changes. That way when the world shifts, I’m ready. I’ve thought about it, considered options, laid out a plan. This gives me some confidence that I will weather whatever storms come my way. Now I worry less, smile more and enjoy the moments knowing I have a plan. I trust everything will be ok.
Linda Mallard
Owner, Tsawwassen Wellness Centre
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